BLAH!

Soooo the cruise ship job didnt work out.. THey were taking way to long with everything and it was getting to irritating... plus its hurricane and bad weather season here so i was a little nervous. Ummmmm Sooo i got a new job as a photographer at a studio. I'm pretty excited about it. I can't wait to start work...BUTTTTTT I really just wanna go home... things are different here.. WAY to many changes all at once. I feel like i've had to compromise who i am at times... and I should never feel that way!

Dont know

Sooo I'm not sure what is going on right now.. im not sure what is on my mind. I'm not even sure what im feeling.... so i guess i dont know what to write

Well this is me... my diet is working.. just so everyone knows.. im not going to tell u how well or not well but it is working!! yay.. thats one thing to be happy about.. I have to admit.. Although i have a wonderful friend here.. I miss my friends.. I miss hanging out... i miss taking fun weird pictures.. I miss my love so much!! I'm having a hard night.. and because of this stupid time difference i dont have anyone to talk to!!! :( but anyways im dying my hair.. but shhhhh dont tell anyone lol... im not telling u what color either.. im being mysterious tonight huh?? anyways i luv u mom :) and thankyou tim and cathy for viewing my blog and leaving comments

The secret to Sexiness is you

Remember that!! lol anyways





SOoooooOOoo i havent done too much the past few days other than work out!! It's been fun though. I have also rested.





But i have only been having my diet and i am about to go full throttle so wish me luck!!





I actually looked in the mirror today and told me "You know... you ARE beautiful" and i felt so good about myself! Even though it isnt showing (like the weight yet) I feel good about how hard i have been trying and i am actually started to gain confidence... actually i have a lot of confidence.. (confidence is not conceited and it is OKAY to confident in yourself... it's sexy) but anyways.. I am going to work harder on my dieting.. my exercising is pretty top notch so im not to worried about that part of it. but yeah tomorrow i will call the people for the cruise ship and kristi (the person i am staying with) said if nothing happens we will Go up to the office (whether they like it or not) and we will SIT there until they make me an appointment.. hehe gotta love her





anyways thats about it!!





*codie*

SOOOO

Sooo life is going well.. I decided maybe the reason it is taking longer (although im ready to get started) could be because i need to make sure my body is ready for everything (such as the training or the job in general) SOOOO maybe i need to focus on my losing weight first and getting into shape.. I dunno.. its the only explanation i could come up with!! lol SOo i figured out how to post pictures on here and the moment i take some i will post some.

I downloaded a lot of music for my mp3 player... but now i cant seem to find a chord to match it around here.. it's a sad sad story!! lol.

Oh i went to the mall yesturday! It was way different from the mall back home at tulsa! It was crazy!

oh well i guess thats all i have to say :)

thanks for reading

*codie*

Great

Sooo I think My Mom is the only one that reads this.. but that's okay! Atleast it will give her something to do right?? hehe I luv my mom.. She's the best!

But anyways

Things are looking up in Hawaii... I still miss my family and Joshua like crazy but thats okay. I am learning to cope with it. and there is one more downer.. The cruise ship thing is STILL taking longer than planned!! I want to get on with it!! BBBUUUTT!! There is some good news!! I am working on my body like crazy.. I've been working out every day and im gonna keep doin it.. i've been eating healthy and just doing everything i can to get into better shape!! TODAY i finished an ENTIRE Tae Bo DVD and i have NEVER been able to do that.. so u can only imagine how good it made me feel. I am going to continue dieting and exercising so when i come back i can be a whole new person. I have also been reading my bible daily and taking notes on it... and keeping a journal. Things arent so bad anymore.. Although yes it is true i could NEVER live here!! lol Hawaii is definatly just a vacation destination type place for me. Well im done for now!! Take care and Have fun

*codie*

A Little Better

Well things are getting a little better around here... I am getting used to the time difference i think... i have started working out and stuff so things are going good there!! I still do really miss my family and my baby but i am okay. i am learning to get through that. I am trying hard to think about all of the things I can work on for myself!! SO that helps.. and i am thinking about how much everyone else can work on as well.

I am still trying to get things to move on with the cruise ship deal. So please pray that things with that moves quickly! Thankyou :)

I love you MOMMY!!

*codie*

Away for the first time

Soo I am in Hawaii.. Great huh? Sounds good!! well it isn't bad. Most people would kill to come here. Well i got lucky and came to help a friend out and it turned into me trying to get a job on a cruise ship. Well things seem to be going as planned as far as that comes.. But i am not going to lie.. it is difficult.. You see I've never been away from my mom for longer than 2 weeks at a time... and im a whole 5 hour time difference away. Clear across the ocean.. It's a big move and something to really get used to. Plus I've never had a boyfriend whom i adored when i've left and went away. Now I do.. So things are a little more complicated.. I left my family whom i love, my mother who has always been there... and my love whos time means everything to me.. But i got to thinking.. Everything happens for a reason.. I could really find myself and work on myself while i am here. I could lose weight.. work on my acne (not like its terrible or anything) and just really work on myself. I plan on also studying my bible. I would really like to learn more about it and more about my beliefs and religion. Also I am going to be writing in a journal and catching up with my baby on Pokemon (lol). Soo I will just need to keep myself busy.. plus it is nice seeing an old friend and catching up. It is also getting me prepared i believe for when i do need to get out there on my real own and start my own life and family. It will help me and my family prepare for whenever (in the future) that may happen.

Also everyone... it truley is beautiful here... the mountains and the beaches.. its so nice.. the weather is pretty nice (ecpecially compared to Oklahoma weather). But I got Burned bad today in the sun!! haha (stupid me right??) lol

but yeah wish me luck with the cruise ship job because things seem to be moving slower than planned with it and the more time it takes the longer EVERYTHING will take (pay check, being away, etc).

Well thats all for now. I plan on staying updated while i am in hawaii and away. Hope you enjoyed reading :)

*codie*